Hypocrite

somedays
I don't want to be the backbone
the medicine
the callous
the punchline
the freak
so for this moment
I crumble and dissolve
into someone I should hate
but I don't hate her
mostly just envy
because she has your attention
undivided, unflinching
and she is unafraid to
ascertain more
will you let her? like everbody else?
or will you put an end to my
foolishness...