I'm sitting here staring at
valentine hearts
reminding me of the day that I'm pretty sure
I fell in love with you
reminding me more of the day that I had to tell you
it couldn't be the way it was
you were tying a ribbon around my neck
I felt your breath, your hands the closest they had been
since the day I knew that I was in love with you

Most days I wonder what would have happened
if I had said nothing
if I had not torn the ribbon off my neck and
if I had let my voice waver
you would have known I didn't mean it
and you could love me

Always I know that it would have remained
so empty
so breakable
and it wouldn't matter how much I had given you
it wouldn't make it beautiful,
it would just hurt more