don'tevenalwaysknowwhattotellyoudear
honey
don't worry
should I say that? don't worry honey?
should I scoop out your eyeballs so you can't see my face
the funny
faces I make because my brain is swimming in blood
upside down it swims on it's back
can't talk about it right now
don't want to talk about it, Sweety.
will you get mad at me
if I get mad at you?
pretty upset?
I really am a cardboard cutout
I'm in a dive Chinese place hoping I'm not poisoned by food
and laughing out how insecure I feel in night time time time time time time
tea time
bed time
summer time
supper time
watching shapes shift.


bleck.