don't come back. don't blink eyes too heavy. don't say a name and mean it less than you used to.
Pull up into your spine a wonderful memory, and don't make it out to be something it's not. Coax the heart to keep beating. Whisper words to it that it would associate with happiness and Christmas and the first day you loved Jesus.

Drink water, count traffic lights, pet the dog.
You can't believe everything that you tell yourself.