unsettling
a little before me, a little after me
you would know me in a little while.

drums and guitar in the dark and
yes
we were always cold in the doorway. the painted frame. the hole
and bitter, we were happy bitter.
happier when we were unhappy, maybe.

shoulder to shoulder
saying swear words and proud of the bruises on our knees
we laughed. in a dirty old car missing it's mirror on the right.
so long, old times.
so long, old car.
so long swearwords and bad words and bad girls.
we got us some hard times now, good as we are.

when we often would-
it was cold and we'd changed our passwords
but we sat in smoky silences and tried to close our eyes
and sleep.
Couldn't. We were too tired.
We were young and we were old
atthesametimebaby
taking pictures of ourselves smiling
holding bricks of our thoughts in our hands

didn't you
think that when I changed
I'd come back the same?
full circle
yep. I wasted some years, didn't I, baby?
you did too.
We wasted them at the same time on the same things
but you still hurt
and I don't.